..i aLways aSk mAy seLf why i dOnt have i boyfriend?.. i dOnt think tHAt im uGLy..bAcause i knOw im nOt.. bUt why?.. iT iS beCause i am kinda cHiLdish sOmetimes?.. oR, i dOnt knOw hOw tO fix aNd tO act Lyk a Lady?..Or., i dOnt hAve sex appeaL?.. i reaLLy dOnt knOw.. i know iM tOo yOung tO ask tHAt qUestiOn.. but eventhOugh im oNLy 14 y/o, i wAnt aLsO to xPirieNce sOmethings tHAt my friends uSuaLLy xPirienced ryt nOw.. sOmetimes., wHen im with my friEnd., i feel that im aLways out of pLAce., beCause maNy of tHem have a pArtner.. wHen wHere waLking or doiNg sOmethings., iM sAd aNd insicUre bEcaUse i feeL aLone.. sOmetimes., my otHer frieNds aLways teLL to me tHat if i reaLLy waNt tO have a boyfriend., i mUst Learn 1st tO cOmmit tO sOme oTher gUys tHat i dOnt kNow..here iN phiLippines., we caLLed tHet "career".. cAreer mEans a commitmeNt tO a persOn tHAt nOt seriOus.. bUt., eVenthough tHey fOrce me., i Can't.. becAuse., aHmmm., i dOnt kNow.. mAybe., because i hAVe a crush,, a crush tHAt i think a Love.. i waNt him vErymUch.. bUt it's sO sad., bEcause i knOw tHAt it's impOssibLe 4 him tO faLL inLove tO me.. mAybe bAcAuse., he is sUper iNteLLigent aNd mAny more.. bUt as we aLways say.. "nothing is impossible'.. sO i bELieve aNd i hOpe tHat sOmeday.. he wiLL lyk me nOt oNly as a friend.. nOw., tHere's a gUy i wanna meet.. aS fAr as i knOw., he iS hAndsOme.. i hOpe, he wiLL be my first boifriend,, aMpf'''..!:D